I am feeling down
Tak taulah kenapa tapi hari ni rasa down sangat. I feel so helpless. Biasanya pagi2 lepas solat, maklang dah turun buat breakfast untuk Cik Abang dan anak2. Bibik akan tolong2 dan siapkan bekal masing2 dan buat air. Biasanya jugak maklang akan memasak the main course untuk lunch, and kalau sayur tu tak perlu dimakan panas2 maklang akan masak sayur tu jugak. Macam tulah I start my day. Everyday, without fail. Of course kalau weekend and kalau tak penat sangat, I will cook something special for the family.
Tapi bila dah kena sakit camni, I feel so helpless. I feel that I cannot be of any good to the family. Tak boleh nak layan sangat anak2. Hakim pun dah komplen yang dia nak peluk mak susah sebab takut kena perut mak yang sakit ni! Kesian kat Cik Abang sebab tak boleh nak layan dia sangat. Masa dia pergi kerja pun maklang masih kat bilik lagi. Kesian kat Along, Angah and Maya sebab pergi sekolah cuma nampak Bibik aje kat dapur. Tapi of course sebelum pergi tu semuanya salam2 and cium2 dulu. Kesian Hakim pergi sekolah cuma dengan Bibik aje yang tunggu kat bawah. I feel so very sad sebab tak dapat nak macam selalu.
Malam tadi the whole body was aching. Kaki lengoh sangat. Mungkin kepenatan sebab lepas aja kawan2 opis balik, tu tak berapa sempat nak rehat sebab another friend came. Lama jugak dia kat sini. Dekat pukul 6:00 baru dia balik. Dia memang close dengan maklang. My senior about 7 years. Walau jarang jumpa, tapi kami rapat. She is like an elder sister which I never had. Lepas dia balik tu barulah solat Asar, then berehat aje. Lepas maghrib tu kaki rasa lengoh sesangat. Mula2 Cik Abang yang sapukan minyak then Dhirah pulak letak counterpaint. Selibung badan dengan comforter, Dhirah pakaikan socks and baju tebal and terbaring aje atas katil sambil tengok TV and baca buku cerita.
Alhamdulillah bangun pagi ni rasa OK sikit. Tapi rasa sedih pulak. Tak tahu apasal. Hormone imbalance? Mungkin jugak. Macam ke PMS je. Sedih tak tentu pasal. Sebenarnya maklang pun tengah risau selagi Dr. tak dapat nak confirm apa sakit maklang ni. Kena tunggu 10 hari lagi baru dapat tahu. Mintak2 bukan something yang serius......
posted by maklang @ 1:09 pm
12 Comments:
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waiting is torturous kan..tapi mak lang..kalau u rasa down nanti anak anak jugak sedih tengok mak lang.. u have been pampering them all the time.. biar la this time..u take time to lie down n be the one to be pampered.. memang mak lang tak biasa tapi dah tak sihat..kena biasa biasakan la kan..
hope u will get well soon..
hugs again
Simah, thanks for the words of comfort.
a'kum maklang.hyes..first time masuk sini after blog hopping from ??heh tak igt dah byk sgt..oo m.lang sakit ka..nway..speed recovery k!n cherio2 selalu..salamz kenai2
Maklang, I know how it felt when we are down and low due to physically unfit. We are aware of many suggestions on how to deal. But sometimes we have to keep trying to see what is the one that work for us for certain particular time. Reading yr previous entry..seems that you tried to occupied yrself with yr hobby which is good. But if it does not work at this point of time you need to change. Relaxing your mind & soul probably another way. Look at the green, smell fresh air outside maybe helpful.
Just to share what I did to overcome this feeling recently..I woke up in the morning with dua so that I would not think of negative. And mintak Allah permudahkan apa yang mendatang. Even if it is difficult, let me have the control of the emotion in my mind. Then I did light/simple exercise every few hours - turning my head, circling my shoulder etc etc. Everyday in between Zohor & Asar I read at least 2 pages of Quran. Once in a while I had hypnotised myself with hypnotheraphy techniques of CD I bought on line for relaxation with diafram breathing. I stop thinking about kesian to all my love one even my job for awhile because I need to take a good care of my well being..physical & mental fitness for now. Especially when PMS thinks really get out of control..but what I practice do help me in a way to be in control of my emotion although sometimes I fail. And friend is all around even in the blog to talk abt the feeling..then feel better..and release.
That much I can share my experience with you. I can't be at your shoes but at least I can offer how & what I did to overcome mine. Mak lang, you take care and have a good rest. Be in touch kay...BIG HUGGGG & smile always..
psst...sorry panjang sangat tulih ni..but this is sincerely what is flowing from my mind the moment I read your entry. Take care.
Sekali sekala tak apalah biarlah dia orang pamper you. kalau dah sakit macam mana mak lang nak buat semuanya sendiri seperti masa sehat. Anak dan suamipun tentu faham Mak Lang. Memanglah kalau menunggu sesuatu yang kita tak tau tu sangat merisaukan. This cld contribute to yr feeling down. Sama-samalah kita doa, segala-galanya okay nanti. Insyaallah.
ML things will work out as before just don't think too much be strong for yrself and family.Don't worry the children and hubby will understand just relax and enjoy the break....by the way don't go up and down the stairs too much badan tu belum sihat sangat,find a place and rest downstairs during the day but ofcourse nothing like own bed kan?
cheer up ML and alhamdulillah everything will be ok.
Ya-Allah ya Tuhanku, jauhkanlah Mak Lang dari apa-apa jenis penyakit yang kuat agar beliau sihat untuk beribadat kepadaMu dan dapat menjaga keluarganya dengan penuh kasih sayang...
Amin ya rabbal al-amin...
ps-takdak apa2lah Maklang, health scare je ni nak bagi lagi power badan Maklang... lagipun semua penyakit ada ubat...
mizzwanda:
TQ. InsyaAllah berkat doa wanda, maklang akan recover soon!
AM:
Thank you...thank you for the long advise! MEmang at times like this memang kena sort to solat bebanyak and baca Quran. TU lah tempat mengadu yang paling hampir. Infact I was crying when doing my dhuha and solat hajat. Sedih rasanya....Memang ini semua ketentuan Allah. Dan moga2 dimudahkan semuanya buat maklang, InsyaAllah!
Kak Teh:
Terimakaseh atas nasihat mu. Maklang tau anak2 dan Cik Abang faham, tapi payah nak buang rasa kesian tu...tapi as far as I could..tak mau nak tunjuk muka sedih sangat depan mereka!
Kak Elle:
TQ. A friend in need is a friend indeed. Thanks again.
Izhal:
TQ kerana mendoakan maklang. Camnilah seorang adekkan. Doakan moga2 semuanya tak ada apa2, InsyaAllah!
huahuahua..insyaallah everything will be ok.Take care.
maklang..
saya dapat bayangkan perasaan maklang sekarang ni..sebab zino pernah mengalamni dulu masa jatuh sakit.. anak anak pun tak sempat nak layan..
tapi maklang perlu kuatkan semangat dan berfikiran positif.. kurangkan sementara memikir perkara2 yg tak dapat maklang kawal sprt kerja2 opis dan sebagainya.. adalah org yg akan mengurus..
lakukan perkara2 ringan dan tidak membiarkan fikiran melayan memikir perkara yg belum pasti.. inshaAllah maklang akan berjaya melepasi saat saat penantian ini..
Easy:
TQ
Zino:
Iyelaa ....kena pandai compartmentalized macam Cik Abang kata tu. Tak leh pikir semua. Sendiri punya masaalah kena jaga dulu!
ML, semuga cepat sembuh.
I had a scare recently. Fikiran memang tak tentu arah, macam tak kena aje. The restlessness was bad enough and not knowing the result made things worse. Alhamdulillah dah ok and doakan yang terbaik untuk ML juga.
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